Poem - Who Am I ???

This is a Poem that came to me when I watched a K-Drama series on Netflix titled “Under the Queens Umbrella” it is based around the 14th or 15th Century in the Korea’s Joseon Dynasty.  This poem was inspired from my empathic feeling for one of the characters.  It is through my guides that I can transcribe this poem for my gifts are of an Intuitive Empath Psychic so this has always been my identity but had no clue of what it was at a young age.  I wrote poems for family and friends of their experiences yet I never understood how the words came to me (sometimes it still is confusing to me).  It took me over 30 years to discover what this “gift” really was and this journey of emotional writing came to me around 12-13 years old.  Please if this poem you feel can help someone, do share with them for it was given to me so that those who can find some comfort it is non-judgmentally here for them.

With Love and Light: 

                                       Who Am I ???


In the midst of despair, I look around me and find no one that I may share.

Lost in the darkness….there fumbling to seek answers for which my emotions are spared.

Judgment befalls me even of my own, wondering why I keep feeling so alone.   

The light glimmers in the distance, wondering if ever it will stay longer than before.

Walkways filled with beautiful blossoms yet lost of that joy that it becomes no more.

The truth of who I am is becoming more complex to hide, for it is a part of me that is screaming to stay alive.

Shame follows me with my inner-self as we all as what is received from others.

There are no ways to comfort my inner-being and also being what others desire.

Facing and speaking the truth gets harder and harder…

Those who say they “Love Me”, it is my wonder, will that love still be if they discover my cover.

It has been said…”the truth will set you free” but how can that really be ?!

For will the price be too high for those I love when the true me will be uncovered 

Thought of darkness keeps haunting me to not be in a world that regrets me, to escape into infinity so the pain will soon cease to be.

 A brighter day I know is waiting there to exist but the darkness inside still seems to spread more that no comforting lights awaits me.

The Earth seems to keep covering my sorrows yet the hole is deeper and walls keep growing taller.

Words of hatred will spill from the mouth of others “that evil posses’ me” if the truth is found.

They will call themselves as the “truth speakers” as judgment befalls my character.

The knowingness of how reality seems to be, it is here that the feeling of imprisonment haunts me.

When will the walls crumble and set me FREE??

Yet can I bear the outcome that will be released, when I speak of “who the True Me” has always been meant to be!!


Written by Maria Elena Padron
Written and Posted on this day of 27th of February 2023




                   

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