What is Faith in God

What is Faith in God?

As I start this New Year 2023, I have been reflecting the past year “2022” that I have experienced.  There were a lot of sorrow, loss, pain, joy, excitement, new friendships and the most important was personal growth!  I have had to fully “LET GO and LET GOD” more then ever before.  Last year was my big “60th” birthday a landmark in which my beautiful ‘stepdaughter’ (from previous marriage that I call her my “chosen daughter”) planned a great venture on a Dinner Cruise the including guests were; my niece, nephew-in-law, a wonderful friend of hers, her mom and her mom’s friend.  It was an amazing night even though I wore very tight shoes that I barely could stand on but still that did not ruin my night.  It was perfect with a beautiful sky including the Full Moon before Spring Equinox with the sky a little cloudy that caused a beautiful haze on the view of the full moon. 

Before my birthday I lost (passed) my 71/2 year old male cat named “Simba” on January early morning before 4am, not sure of the cause because I couldn’t get him to the vet on time.  Then on April (after our Spring Break) we all received the news via Zoom informing us that our company is closing the “educational teaching” department in all of their three campus which included the one in Tampa.  Then via  company email I learnt my termination date would be in October 2022.  Then on May 7th around 4am my 16 year female dog (my furry baby) died beside me, I woke up and her jaw was slightly opened and no breathing.  That was three deaths in total the grieving was being numbed by one incident after the other and my father was an uncertainty for at 90 years old he was mainly bed ridden.  Then around May he was admitted to an ALF which I knew his spouse tried for as long as she could to keep him at home.  

My plans were to stay as a full-time Massage Therapy Instructor with Altierus Career College until my retirement at 65 years old or 67 years old.  Then I would concentrate on my Healing/Consulting Therapy work on my own as a self-employed.  The amazing thing is that around 2-3 weeks prior to my work company’s announcement I asked God (aka Universe/Divine Spirit) that if he wishes for me to continue the path as a Massage Therapy Instructor, for I was going through some personal situations, to grant me a sign for it to be made clear to me.  This request comes from having the mentality of “not being good enough” in every expect of my life including my work in the massage/healing therapy career, therefore I was having doubts about my teaching style.  I received the answer “you are what is needed for those who you are needed for, when there are no more then your path will change”. Then Boom, we received the news that our company was closing all campus and we will be on a “teach out” so all of us were losing our jobs but we all had different termination dates as full-timers.  A few weeks later, the grief was replaced by “guilt” due that I put the question out there and the change wasn’t only affecting me but my fellow co-workers of the entire campus.  Then of course I realized the guilt feeling was myself thinking that it all was about me!  Well life is not all about me and I reeived clarity that as a group we all need to move forward apparently and look deep within ourselves to reflect what life will bring.  This was just the start of my year and all I kept getting is “God’s got this, just prepare yourself for your inspired path”.  Well as my ups and downs kept coming, I still was letting myself slip into grief and didn’t have a plan either, but I know that God is always great and knew my main mission was faith in all things.  The messages that was given to me via certain physical signs, people’s advice, and even animal spirit signs it was all directing my awareness to believe in myself and know that as a child of “God” to continue focusing on the teachings of Jesus.  So there I went to old books I had purchased but didn’t finish reading, YouTube on spirituality (everything I could find) which popped up an App that I had downloaded over a year ago (The Chosen) and this verified that I have to really understand his teachings.  So through this process the realization came to me that even though my faith was always strong and present, the messages were not as clear.  For many years when I did my own consultations (spirit writing) the messages I have received was to connect to my spirituality but stubbornly I had rejected it for I knew my faith and felt strong in it.  The truth is that we can never believe that are “faith” is that strong or understood! This was my “slap on the face” to wake-up and rediscover my true faith in “God”, to see how many downs it will take for me to wake up, apparently it was a few, and to go learn what I have passed by due to FEAR.  This is still a work in progress and trusting everyday that God has this, the Let Go Let God message which I know fully understand, has been a difficult journey.  The tricky part was that I kept feeling that to “let go” was a sign of being lazy or weakness but realized that it’s not it is to find the meaning in each day and see where the tides will take you.  So think about this….is there such a thing as having too much faith?  My opinion is NO it is not, my opinion is that no one can say that each of us can have enough faith! My past experiences  made it difficult for me to let go of the “control” of the wheel of my life until there was that reaching of a “desperation” point.  When we keep wanting the control there is a tendency to close ourselves up to listen when God speaks to us whatever way you connect with him the Divine Spirit.  

The research and acknowledgments that was brought to my awareness is that we as humans (not the spirit form) tend to focus more on the beliefs in how our faith was brought to us by our family heritage (or lack of) which the true relationship with God is your own study and connection.  As a Christian (raised Catholic) my belief has always been in the Trinity (God the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit) but there was so much confusion on how I should believe.  The reason is that I also do believe in the Metaphysical world which is considered wrong in many Christian religions, so I was finding it difficult to believe in my path of worship.  Ever since a young child I had certain abilities that I could sense other beings not in our world which some were uncomfortable but others did bring comfort.  It was also easy for me to tune into other’s feelings and I was able to write poems for them of their deep emotions and pain in which they always were amazed that I was able to connect to their inner thoughts and feelings (was told I was a “witch” or mind reader LOL).  The most understandable explanation that at that time that made sense to me was that as an actor takes on a certain character that I had that ability as well, I later found out in my mid thirties this was not considered poetry but something else which is actually “Empath Spiritual Writing”.  Not sure how many times I was informed I was highly intuitive yet given this ability and guiding others to find their truth, it was difficult finding my own path.  One strong message that was given to me by my guides about my faith and religious beliefs is “that all the religions matter and none do” huh….you may say, exactly how I felt then realized in the Christian world…all the believes of Jesus Christ are both right and wrong for it matters not what one believes as long as his message is what gets passed on which is the Truth and Love.  As the majority of true healers therapy work that I have crossed paths with, no matter their beliefs they follow this same concept which is what serves oneself is not other’s beliefs but their own beliefs.

Every time that I thought there was clarity it is revealed that it is not as clear and I allowed the confusion to keep setting in for myself as though there was an “evil” play here keeping the truth away from all of us.  The feelings of understanding how I can make a difference when still there was not enough clarity on my own beliefs and faith to assist others has kept me from achieving the path that I have always deep inside known I was meant to do!  Then again it was brought to my attention that every religious leaders do express the importance of studying the “word” and to connect with God in your own personal relationship.  Think about it if we would be 100% sure that we have all the information then there’s no more lessons (good or bad) to learn from so we can not grow to be the witness that he needs us to be.  This is what the series “The Chosen” has shown me, that even Jesus journey was not an easy path even his own birth (watch “The Chosen” Christmas special) How can we think this to be a coincidences?  If we really follow his life we know that he made a lot of sacrifices to spread the teachings of God and who Jesus really was (which still there is a deal of controversies) even his apostles and disciples (followers) made those sacrifices.  This was so the apostles would later take his teachings to the Jews as well as the gentiles all over the world (which it has occurred).  The teachings will also include the miracles like Jesus did as well as to teach others and all must be done with Love, understanding and no judgement while having the trust and faith that God will show them how, where and when to do so.  Trusting that everyday they will have a place to rest, eat and be provided for.  It’s one of Jesus’ preaching for All of us then and now; “For not to be anxious about food, but to rely on God as the birds, who are worth far less than people, are fully provided for”.  (Matthew 6:26). So what is your true faith in God? Do you believe you are fully provided for?  Make sure you are clear on this for you will be shown the truth, this has happened to me and will continue until I fully understand the message, this I am sure of!!

The experiences in my life has shown me that as we get closer to God, peace will follow but the temptations of self-doubt, disbelief and fear will always be present.  Our journey is to grow closer and stronger each day and whatever your belief is do remember it belongs to you and not to anyone else.  This also is what I do stand firmly on for as I judge not on anyone’s beliefs (even the atheist) I will not allow myself to receive other’s judgments on me.  My faith will continue to grow and the witness that God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit do expect out of me to deliver, will continue.  This has been shown to me in my life repeatedly so there is no other way for myself personally to believe, so I will not allow any further derailing on my faith for God I know will show me the way, I only need to be open and listen!!  

In closing, wether you believe in Angels, Spirits, Guides and other entities or if you believe that only in what Science has been for now able to prove, just know you are believed in by the divinity.  

Live in Truth and in Love for that was what was meant for us from the very beginning.

In Jesus name - may you find your path in life and know your Truth.

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Maria Elena Padron